This is the End

I have taken this as far as I can. Euthanasia is now arranged. I’ve had a great life, travelled all over the world. Most important of all is the 45 years spent with Debz. I could never have done it without her. Now at the end she is a tower of strength and support. i […]

Continue reading

Close to the end

I gave up on chemo in February, the side effects just got too bad. Nature is now taking its course, the tumours keep growing, and I get tired and breathless as they do. I closed my connection with CML at the end of July. This was a hell of a jerk after 25 years but […]

Continue reading

Not evil but does it work?

After my January scan we found that whilst the most recent chemo may not be evil it wasn’t doing a lot! So we changed to an Antigen treatment, this is DNA based and more specific. The side effects are very dry skin, zits and general fatigue as well as all the usual things to do […]

Continue reading

Chemo may not be totally evil!

After my last adventures with chemo I swore never to go that route again, but the tumours started growing again and I talked at length with my oncologist… The outcome is that I’m now on a different form of chemo, a fortnightly infusion. It’s an infusion that has been reported to have horrid side effects […]

Continue reading

Chemo is evil

A simple title and a simple message.If you have cancer try everything you can before you try Chemo and even then think more than twice before you start… Over the last 4 years, I have had multiple surgeries to remove tumours from various parts of my body. Unfortunately in July my scan showed multiple small […]

Continue reading

Three score years and ten

Well, I never expected to get here 🙂 Of course now I’m here 70 doesn’t seem old at all.I remember agreeing with the “never trust anyone over 30” idea and then suddenly I was over 30 and it was good.I didn’t really notice 40, I was far too busy.50 should have been a milestone but […]

Continue reading

The sun has got his hat on

Well after this morning’s dismal tale of woe…The sun has come out.I’ve just ridden 20Km on my bike through a totally new park that is just opening. It’s been 4 years in the building.A huge wildlife reserve with canals and lakes all over, bike and footpaths and no motor vehicles.It’s fun cycling along and realising […]

Continue reading

It’s getting to the point

The next line is “where I’m no fun anymore” maybe for me right now the I’m should be changed to life.I’m losing my positive attitude as my life is slowly whittled away.Nothing major, just lots of little things.I can’t sit out in the sun because the chemo makes my skin hypersensitive.I have to cough more […]

Continue reading

Hmm, a different future

I had my 4 monthly scan 3 weeks ago and it wasn’t good news.My CT scan showed a lot of very small shadowy tumours, far too many to be dealt with via surgery. I was passed on to the Chemo specialists.I am starting Chemo next week, it’s a mixed approach, tablets daily, the same drug […]

Continue reading

Not so clear scan!

I haven’t posted since October and my clear scan, this was followed by a scan that showed a tumour in my trachea. A number of extra scans later, MRI, CT & PET, I was told that this was a serious tumour and that operations on it were rare, very rare and survival chances were, err, […]

Continue reading